Some good always comes of it. Even the worst experiences offer something to redeem themselves.
This has made me grateful for all of the excellent experiences I have had prior to it. It has made me realize that I have been lucky to have truly unselfish, considerate, kind partners.
While there was no love, at the very least there was respect for my sense of self, and for my personhood. There was genuine affection in spite of, or in addition to desire.
Without you, I would never have realized that. I would never have valued the generous warmth I was freely offered. I would have failed to fully grasp the depth of care that was extended.
If nothing else, I have gained that."
I promised myself I wouldn’t bake for boys again, yet, twice this quarter I have. So much for breaking old patterns.
- The new blue eyed monster.
So much bullshit. So little time. But entertaining to record for posterity.
It’s going to be a delicious mess.
I’ll be back when he rips my heart out and plates it for me."
I’m dating someone. I can’t feel anything. Literally and. figuratively. Emotionally and physically.
I think I might have broken something vital."